It's a rainy Tuesday in TN

Hope everyone had a good weekend.  I didn't loose anything this week, but I didn't gain so I will take that!    I had dinner with a friend last night at Olive Garden usually when I go out I always have sprite.  I ordered water instead this time one because of it's cheaper and two I enjoyed my meal so much more because I wasn't bloated on a carbinated beverage.

I was talking to my friend last night and told her of all my woes of the weekend and how I had been dealing with anger about stuff.  So she sat there patiently for awhile and listened to me go on and on.  Finally she spoke up and said, Shayla I know how you feel, I've been there to.  But what she said next I didn't expect....She shared with me about a testimony from a dear sweet Godly lady, Sister Evelyn Cape.  She was at my friend's church recently and was testifying that that morning she had a great big pity party...she said and you know what the Lord didn't show up for it.  It kept him away.  She said but the devil sure showed up.   She said once she realized her mood was getting worse and worse she stopped and starting thanking the Lord for her blessings....she said it wasn't to long until the Lord showed up and met with her.   She also said the self pity is a sin!!!!   When my friend said that it felt like someone had slapped me in the face!!!  If I had not been in the resturant I would have broken down, not from being mad, but from being convicted.  Because I can have some awesome pitty parties!!!     My biggest thing is being single and not feeling complete because of that.  But my friend told me.....Shayla we all have something in our lives that the devil will use to keep us discouraged, because when we are discouarged we are of no use to the Lord or his work.

I can complain all day and be mad and angry at God that I'm not married, don't have children, and the list goes on....but I also know people that are married and have children that are not any happier than I am.   True happiness can only come from the Lord.....and when we are happy in HIM, then the life we are living single or married, children or no children we can find contentment in the season we are in.   This may not mean anything to anyone else but I sure needed to hear it because of where I'm at right now.  Will I still have pity parties oh I'm sure, but this conversation will remind me what self pity is from now on.

I hope everyone has a great Tuesday!!!!

Shay

Happy Thursday!!!

Good Morning Everyone!!  Hope ya'll have had a great week so far.  Mine has been good.  I've enjoyed my time of vacation this week.  I started thinking last night about going back to work on Monday and started to feel down, then the Lord reminded me not to let it take the away from the time I've enjoyed this week.  I'm very thankful for my job so I don't want to take it lightly that I have one to go back to!!

I found a few new receipes online this week that I'm excited to try and yes both are mexican based....lol!!! 

I'm very thankful in my heart this morning for my many blessings.  Alot of the times I tend to think negative about things and with God's help I want to stop doing that.  I have so much to be thankful for!!!   If I can encourage you and myself today....when the devil throws you a negative STOP and thank the Lord for a blessing.....this will chase the devil away from attacking your mind.

Hopes everyone has a great Thursday!!! 

Shay

Vacation Week....so happy!!!

Well, I weighed this morning and I was down 2.2lbs.  So I will take that!  Not great since I didn't loose much at all since I first signed up on WW again.  Been gone alot so I ate out alot and it's hard to loose when eating out....anyway....this weekend was better.  

I guess I need to vent a little this morning and it's really not about weight issues.  I guess I get amazed at how negative people are.  No matter what they always have to get their smart-alec or caddy comments in on people and the things going on in their lives.  Whatever happened to being an encouragement to people and for being happy when something good happens to someone no matter what it is????   I mean really does it hurt to give a kind word and leave it at that instead of always having to throw that "but" in?    Claiming to be a Christian( and I am one) and not being happy for a brother or sister in Christ something is wrong....very wrong.  Again,just had to vent....it has been on my mind for several days. 

Looking forward to being off this week.  Got lots to do and I'm excited for some relaxing days.

I hope everyone has a great Monday!!!

Shayla

I'm back....

Well I'm back!!!  I will be honest and say I've not done the first bit of exercise or ate right since my last post.  I have come to realize food is my comfort....when I'm up or down....it's a constant in my life when everything else seems to not be.   However saying that I've also realized this past week if I don't do something about my weight I'm looking at the possibility of some major health problems down the road.  I want to get healthy for ME...not a man, or for cute clothes or for any attention....I just want a better way of life.  I get winded just walking to the mailbox and back....which isn't a long distance.  

So having said all that I've joined Weight Watchers online.  I've always went to meeting, but with my work schedule it's hard for me to do that now.  I'm setting goals this time that are reachable and know its a day by day process.

I want to say a BIG thank you to my dear friend Kim Love!!!  She has been such an encouragement me.....during my ups and downs with this ride.  She has been my cheerleader even when I wasn't on program to get back and try again.   Seeing her loose and how great she looks and I know she feels has really motivated me to get back up on the weight loss horse and try this again and this time for the right reasons. 

I looking forward to sharing with ya'll each day the good and the bad.  I will try to post pics of what I eat....I so enjoy seeing everyone else's! 

I hope everyone has a great Monday!!!

Shayla

Monday....

Well I've not posted in awhile becuase I've not had anything to say!  :-)    Did okay with my eating today.  Walked a mile in 15 minutes, felt good after I walked, thought I was gonna die while doing it!  :)
Hope everyone had a good Monday!

Honesty....

Well, I've dreaded posting this more for myself than anything.  I've not done good this week.  I've not tracked any points or walked at all.  I've beat myself up about the last 2 days, but I've come to realize there are going to be ups and downs!!  Tomorrow is always a new day....thank the Lord!!!

I'm going tomorrow for yearly blood work, and I already know what I'm going to be told!  My insurance company charges $10 more a paycheck if you are considered obsessed.  Well, I already know I am.  What gets me is they do the same for smokers....but you can lie and say I don't smoke....you can't say your not fat...LOL.  

This has been a hard week for me.....but I'm not going to let it knock me down....as dorie says on finding nemo....just keep swimming....just keep swimming....

To those who support me thanks....to those who judge, I've done that too.  So either way they both inspire me to go forward and try and try again!!!  This will always be a life battle just like someone with a drug or alcohol problem....struggling to loose weight is somewhat the same....it has a crippling hold on you!!!

Feeling better

Well I'm finally feeling about 90% better after having the stomach bug for a few days.  I didn't tack food or do any exercise....didn't feel like doing either!!!  So tomorrow it's back on everything 100%!! 

Looking forward to revival service tonight!!!

Hope everyone is doing well and has a great evening!!! 


Shay

TGIF!!!

So thankful today is Friday....whew what a work week!!   I'm happy to say I was down 2.6 lbs this morning!!  Makes me glad even though I didn't get to walk my goal I wanted to.  This will be a very busy weekend.  I'm going to get my walking in though!!  :-)  Happy Friday everyone!!

Okay....

Well...I've not gotten to walk any this week which has really gotten me bummed!!!  I've been in 7-8 hour training class at work and I've had something to do as soon as I've gotten off work.    BUT...I've not had a sprite in 2 days and for those of you who know me....know that is my drink of choice....it's my coffee in the morning...LOL!!!  So I guess that is my goal this week....no more regular drinks.  Only diet, water, or tea.....that may not seem like alot to some but this is a huge step for me!  Just thought I'd share.....

Shout out to my friend Kim Love....if your not following her please go to her blog at Kim's Weight Loss Quest....you go girl!!!  Your doing great!!!  :-)

My goal for tomorrow is to walk 1 mile in the morning before I start work and 1 mile when I get off work.  I've got to get moving again.  I'm way to stiff from sitting around being a couch potatoe!!!